No Hard Feelings

When my body won't hold me anymore
And it finally lets me free
Will I be ready? 

When my feet won't walk another mile
And my lips give their last kiss goodbye
Will my hands be steady?

When I lay down my fears
My hopes and my doubts
The rings on my fingers
And the keys to my house
With no hard feelings

When the sun hangs low in the west
And the light in my chest
Won't be kept held at bay any longer 

When the jealousy fades away
And it's ash and dust for cash and lust
And it's just hallelujah 

And love in thoughts and love in the words
Love in the songs they sing in the church
And no hard feelings

Lord knows they haven't done
Much good for anyone
Kept me afraid and cold
With so much to have and hold

Mmh
When my body won't hold me anymore
And it finally lets me free
Where will I go? 

Will the trade winds take me south
Through Georgia grain or tropical rain
Or snow from the heavens?

Will I join with the ocean blue
Or run into the savior true
And shake hands laughing 

And walk through the night
Straight to the light
Holding the love I've known in my life

And no hard feelings
Lord knows they haven't done
Much good for anyone
Kept me afraid and cold
With so much to have and hold 

Under the curving sky
I'm finally learning why
It matters for me and you
To say it and mean it too
For life and its loveliness
And all of its ugliness
Good as it's been to me 

I have no enemies
I have no enemies
I have no enemies
I have no enemies

No Hard Feelings
Robert Crawford / Scott Avett / Timothy Avett

Let The Wind Take Your Troubles Away

May the wind take your troubles away
May the wind take your troubles away
Both feet on the floor, two hands on the wheel,
May the wind take your troubles away

Let The Wind Take Your Troubles Away - Son Volt

Makes me want to fill up the gas tank - roll down the window - and get on the road.

I'll be your Water

Do you ever get worried
And your load is hard to bear
And your life is like a sad sad story
No one nobody really cares?

But if you ever need someone to talk to
And if you ever need a helping hand
I'll be your ship out on the ocean
I'll be your water in the desert sand

I've been there, I've felt like you do
Feelin' like winter would never turn to spring
And everybody I know has got problems
But there's a solution to everything

And if you ever need someone to talk to
And if you ever need a helping hand
I'll be your ship out on the ocean
I'll be your water in the desert sand

And after you've found your way
You won't owe me nothin'
'Cause you're gonna know that your well
Will never run dry, never run dry

If you ever need someone to talk to
And if you ever need a helping hand
I'll be your ship out, your ship out on the ocean
I'll be your water in the desert sand

I'll be your water and I will give you shelter
I'll be your water, I will be there for you
I'll be your ship out on the ocean
I'll be your water in the desert sand



I'll be your water - Keb' Mo

Everyone should have someone who is their "water".  If you don't have someone who fits that description, maybe it's enough to be someone else's water. 

Don't Need Anything

I've got gardens growing, got quiet days
Clothes on my back, food on my plate
Got friends to help me if I call for them
I don't need anything that I don't have

I've got eyes to see this beautiful land
And feet to take me where I want to stand
If there's work to be done
There's these two strong hands
I don't need anything that I don't have
I don't need anything that I don't have

Some years the rains don't come
And some years floods clear out the plains
If those waters washed this town away
I would still have enough
If she was with me

I've a roof overhead, the stars if I choose
But I've got no itch to fly, got no need to move
Got almost nothing
But I understand
That I don't need anything that I don't have
I don't need anything that I don't have


Don't Need Anything ~ Glen Phillips

On days when I am concerned about my health.. or something I think I want or need - this is a good reminder,  

 

Don't Need Anything ~ Glen Phillips 

 

On days when I'm pissed off about lupus... the state of my lungs... the electric bill... whatever... this is a good reminder.  

3 Things

There are three things I do when my life falls apart
Number one I cry my eyes out and dry up my heart
Not until I do this will my new life start

So that’s the first thing that I do when my life falls apart.

Oh, the second thing I do is I close both of my eyes
And say my thank-yous to each and every moment of my life.
I go where I know the love is and let it fill me up inside

Gathering new strength from sorrow,
I’m glad to be alive.

Things are looking up
I know above the clouds the sun is shining
Things are looking up
Love is still the answer I'm relying
Oh right 

Three little things
Things are looking up

The third thing that I do now when my world caves in,
is I pause, I take a breath, and bow and I let that chapter end.
I design my future bright not by where my life has been.

And I try, try, try, try, try again.
Yes I try, try, try, try, try again.

Things are looking up
I know beyond the dark the sun is rising
Things are looking up

And I know above the clouds the sun is shining
Things are looking
Love is still the answer I'm relying
On

Three little things
Three little things

Things ~ Performed by Jason Mraz
Songwriters: Michael Lee Natter / Nancy Ann Natter / Jason Mraz / Mai Sunshine Bloomfield / Rebecca Emily Gebhardt / Chaska Lela Potter / Mona Tavakoli

Pretty self-explanatory.   A little simplistic, maybe, but good advice.  I was thinking of someone else when I found this - thinking there might not be enough depth in this, but it was helpful for me to read today.  I'm on oxygen now - pretty much 24/7 - pretty discouraging, BUT I'm hoping  counting on this lung damage being reversible.  I still haven't given up on a spontaneous remission of lupus (even though all signs point to it worsening).  Color me "eventually optimistic" - maybe not at first... but eventually.  

A Hazy Shade of Winter

Seasons change with the scenery
Weaving time in a tapestry
Won't you stop and remember me
At any convenient time?

I look around
Leaves are brown, now
And the sky is a hazy shade of winter

Look around
Leaves are brown
There's a patch of snow on the ground

Paul Simon

A Hazy Shade of Winter

Today is my 68th birthday.  I understand the brown leaves. I feel the patch of snow.

Nothing makes you feel older

than pain

and there is no greater pain

than the pain

of watching one of your children

suffer

I'm counting on 

butterflies

and strength after 

struggle

I'm counting on courage

and hope

I'm counting on 

him

to figure it out

to make it right

to find peace

and happiness

finally 

he deserves it.

Don't Give Up

Rest your head
You worry too much
It's going to be alright
When times get rough
You can fall back on us
Don't give up
Please don't give up

Don't give up
'cause you have friends
Don't give up
You're not the only one
Don't give up
No reason to be ashamed
Don't give up
You still have us
Don't give up now
We're proud of who you are
Don't give up
You know it's never been easy
Don't give up
'Cause I believe there's the a place
There's a place where we belong

Don't Give Up
Peter Gabriel

Thinking about my son again - can't get him out of my mind.  First thing when I open my eyes - I think of him - pray for him... last thing at night - I think of him - pray for him.  Same thing all day.  I'm learning what it means to pray without ceasing.  Please help